So I’ve decided to try and make something of my free time lately, kinda dedicate myself in trying to make an effort. It can feel almost impossible to do stuff sometimes when it comes to my depression, the voice in the back of my head telling me how terrible I am at things. I’m going to ignore it and try and get out there. Right now I made the effort to play Magic and already I am regretting it as someone I had a massive fight with years ago is playing, we made it mutual that we never want to speak to each other so this might be the most awkward game of Magic the Gathering I have ever played if we get matched tonight. Still, if we do play each other, win or lose, I’ll shake his hand, give him the credit and leave, but deep down, I really don’t want to play against him. On the bright side, a guy from high school showed up so that could be fun.
Also decided I’m going to try and pick up on my Ukulele/Guitar, try and get somewhat good with music. Going to pay off my library loans and really book up on musical theory and the like and try and have a serious stab at making music, I might record and upload to tumblr every now and again if I’m feeling confident.
Still not entirely sure I feel up to tonight but I guess it’s better than sitting in the flat wondering what to do with my time.